Life Discoveries

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Recently I have discovered I have no right butting into the details of how my life unfolds.  Sounds kinda crazy RIGHT?  Let me explain.  Here goes, let’s set up some scenarios shall we…

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Scenario 1:

You go into a restaurant you peruse the menu and choose your dining experience, a lite meal or a savory dish, either way you reach deep into your desires and feelings of what will nurture you at this moment.  You sit back and let the experts serve you, right?  You enjoy the full experience, the atmosphere, the sounds, maybe even feel yourself become more present with people around you.  You tune in to the subtle nuances surrounding you.  You open up to opportunities or even foresee giving help to a person reluctantly reaching out for assistance. Then when your dish arrives you are gracious and appreciative of the server as well as the cook and the time and efforts all the elements it took to have this experience.

Scenario 2: 

You go to a restaurant you check out the menu and choose what you want to eat, a lite meal or a savory dish.  Now, instead of trusting that experts will take care of your order, you nervously start thinking of all the things you may not have asked for in order to get the dish done right.  Mind chatter starts to take over, paranoia or that lacking feeling.  Hastily you run back into the kitchen where the magic happens, and you start wondering why the cook isn’t flipping this, or adding that. “Wait, What?, You’re not doing it right, I “think” it needs more of …” the list goes on.  Does this have the feel of a nice dining experience?   Are you setting yourself up for, not only some awkward moments, but your in the kitchen trying to control your experience while your missing out on your real truth, life’s lessons and opportunities as they present themselves at your table.  Even if your host is gracious and doesn’t kick you out of the restaurant; you will be so wound up that even trying to digest this meal won’t be pleasant or nurturing.  Mostly because it was not made with love and trust.

Love and trust, are two of the elements that can launch the creation of your desired dish of life.  Let’s take this a step further, shall we?  So now take these scenarios and apply them to our own life’s desires like placing our orders to the “universe”, then we maybe able to tangibly understand  the ludicrous behaviors we all, from time to time, have enacted to create our dreams.  I say the word tangible because this theory is not new, manifesting your desire or sending your order up to the “universe” through the law of attraction or as some of you know it from the movie “The Secret”.  Well, I agree with Abraham Hicks who has been talking about the “Law of Attraction” for decades.  The movie, yet effective in the way of getting out the initial message, did not really explain your part in the manifestation of it.  For me, and maybe many others, the thought of just letting go and letting the “Universe” take care of it seemed kinda to airy fairy.  Being known as a so called “hippie” from Topanga, you’d think I’d be all over that.  Well I’m a realist that embraces the fact that magic does happen when you resist control and let go of “your” idea of what you “think” you want or how it is “supposed” to go down.  Yet, I still find myself trying to control or set up the events and elements “I” feel are needed for my desire to to make the menu.  Having this vision now of a staff of people who have my best interests at heart, who are here to organize my “ALL INCLUSIVE” vacation of life;  I can sit back and just say to the “Universal Travel Agent”:  so what’s up for today?   Oh, we aren’t going there or that person isn’t joining the group?  OK cool, a change in the menu and a new experience.  So what is it I’m going to experience?   What will you dish out as my overall “big Picture” experience from the order I placed from the ever changing universal menu?

It is freeing knowing that you are here to enjoy your experience of life. You always have the opportunity at every moment to make a choice.  Because your travel agent is just ordering up what you asked for.  Saying no, or even not even realizing you passed up an opportunity to experience what you desire, may just be a sign that you are not ready to receive.  Being conscious and clear on what you want with no need to be realistic, dream big, trust that you are enough of a “RockStar” to deserve that experience.  Allow yourself to receive and pay attention to the details of enjoyment and possibly signs that are presenting themselves for you to change your order to better serve you as you evolve and grow.  Our palate  changes over the years, so don’t be stuck in a humdrum existence.  Be daring and try new things, you could be surprised, the magical experts that can pull a lot more strings then us can serve you up more then you could have ever dreamt up.   Now, Order up and enjoy your living vacation we call “LIFE”.  YUM

“I’ll take an order of Integrity with a dash of sexy, and a side of adventure to go Please 🙂 ”

 

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Life is An Experiment JPGWow !   Life sometimes just knocks at my door and this time I answer alert and conscious.   My swagger changes and a certain sense of awareness comes over me .  As I break my experience down to moments of satisfaction and overwhelming sense of contentment and importance.  A moment when I realize I am there for myself.  I can’t explain it, other than to say f or the first time consciously  “I really like myself ! ”   Where as the “cool” side of me really dug the “real” side of me and they bonded.  I seemed to experience a deep sense of respect for a side of me I’ve taken for granted.

Maybe we have never really gotten to know ourselves.  Honestly, do you really know yourself?  This is someone that you spend every moment with.  Have you become so codependent on yourself that you’ve given up?  Enabling and excusing your behavior due to not wanting to face your own need for growth? Or just justified your actions cause your too lazy to admit that you could be possibly wrong?  This person (part of yourself)  stands by you and puts up with all your shit.  They watch you as you drag them around through one situation after the next.  Whether it be a good time or bad.  They are always there, smiling or crying by your side.  So I ask you one more time. Do you really know yourself?  I mean can you depend on yourself?  Do you have your best interests at heart?  Have you not stood up for yourself? Have you let others overpower you?  I’m sure 80% of you could answer YES to at least one of those questions.

That’s why I have suddenly switched.  I can’t explain how other then my circle of evolution has come full circle.  It all makes sense suddenly .  I’m happy.  WOW,  really I am.  Nothing has changed, other then my perception of myself.  I’m there for myself for one of the first times.  I’ve proven to myself that I got my own back and won’t put myself into situation’s where I would have to figure my way out of.  I respect who and whom I spend my time with.  I keep an open heart to allow love in and have compassion for those who don’t know how.

These last few months have been heavy, one of my close friends lost her partner and another lost his teenage daughter.  I can’t imagine the pain they must feel, when life suddenly just switches gears .  This has really made me realize ;  we are truly alone in this world.  We have each other for support and companionship.  But we must have a good relationship with ourselves,  to be able to carry on when tragedy occurs.  Hold on and buckle up, cause the only thing we have control of , is the destination we desire.  Then the rest is up to our own internal navigation devise.  We get re-routed when there is a sudden detour in our course.  Keeping calibrated to our own soul as our internal authority we must use self care to provide the rest stops needed  along the way.

There is a calmness when you can surrender to your own respect and become proud of who you are.  Honored to discover new mysteries about yourself and find unheard of strengths you didn’t realize  you had.  These attributes and findings come when you believe in yourself and allow the vulnerable you to flower.   Finding a way to have self – esteem  through all the dark places  you may go,  when faced with your old story.  Rising above what others think of you and concentrate on what you think of others.

Let your first instinct to love and have compassion be the forefront in decision making.  It is not your place to control how others think of you it’s actually none of your business.  What is your business is how you think of yourself.  You have every right to Love whomever you choose.  Or not be friends with whomever you choose as well.  It does go both ways.  Mainly it is not to get yourself caught up in this web of mistrust and insecurities.  The most confident person you know has moments of insecurities, don’t you ever think differently.  We are all in this experience together.  That’s why we concentrate on our own experiment and leave our other lab partners to their own.   This way at the end of the day we can share our discoveries and create a world of  mind- blowing revolutions that will evolve our spirits to creating the funnest, loving experience we have ever imagined.   I’m ready to share the Nobel Prize of Life with you.  So do your studies … concentrate your attention on the subject at hand… YOU.

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Are we really different from one another? Men from Women, Country from Country, Nationality from Nationality?  I’ve been noticing lately with all of this Worldwide access to one another over the internet, as well as talking with friends and family that we all follow a common ‘like”.  We all want to be Loved, have Empathy, be Acknowledged, Appreciated, Respected, Joyful, and have Peace of Mind. For me Love is the glue that can keep all of these elements together. Unconditional, International, Unexplainable LOVE.  Once we open our hearts to each other I see how a net of trust forms that can create a safe space to give and receive.  Sharing that energy leads us into Empathy.   Once we have that understanding or being aware of, we can’t help but experience a state of Acknowledgement.   When we can have that recognition we can then Appreciate.  With that understanding of something or someone’s value or worth, it would undoubtedly lead us to having Respect.  With a sense of fondness, enthusiasm, passion, devotion brings the energy to Enjoy and rejoice in the human condition.  As we rejoice in that moment, sharing that energy whether it is as calming as Contentment, Lightheartedness, to Exhilaration or Ecstasy we are in a state of well-being.  AHH I don’t know about you but my heart is wide open with LOVE.  Mind you I don’t think we can walk around unconscious.  There is a feeling of self-awareness that is our indicator of our boundaries.  But whether your Relationship is coming from a Spiritual place or a Personal place, it starts with Love.  I guess it starts with Loving one another or Loving a God, for that matter Loving anything.  Having Love in our hearts.  There is no doubt why people find comfort in the phrase “As God is my witness”.  It starts with the Love and builds from there.  I’ll start by saying I Love that all of you that taken the time to open your hearts and read what I have to say.  I feel a sense of communion which brings all of these stages to light.

 

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Taking inventory of your direction is based on the emotional indicators that are going off in ourbody all the time.  Studying the law of attraction through Abraham Hicks has reminded me of what is literally at our fingertips.  If your feeling frustrated or angry or any other type of Yucky feeling.  You are going towards more of what you don’t want.  It is easier said then done… but is it?  The more you master the slightest nuances of your behavior you can master closing the gap to what you want a lot more quicker.  If you are stubborn and or find yourself stuck in a rut of emotional turmoil, you will be like a mule staying put and creating havoc and getting no where.  So take a moment when your emotional indicator light comes on and reassess your options.  No need to try to speed down your path when you are not operating in your  optimum potential.  So take this moment to give yourself a tune up and check in before proceeding down life’s path.

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When your at the end of a chapter you feel sad to turn the page.  Knowing that this story has ended. Feeling a shift that is bigger then me, that I manifested. Sometimes the creation is larger then it’s maker.  Surrendering to this wave, I need to hold on to my inner core of whom I am and who I believe I can be.  Having an open heart and having no agendas has lead me to a moment in time I can barely describe.  It’s like a wave of silence that is almost too loud to hear anything else then your inner voice.  I find myself almost holding my breath awaiting some kind of a sign.  Yet I hear nothing but my spirit collapsing into a state of defeat.  I never thought being pushed to such a state could be so bitter sweet. Yes I’ve had big shifts before but consciously I was not aware of my contributions to my movement.  I thought life was happening to me. Never was aware the I was happening to life.  Having this consciousness now it is a very powerful tool.  It almost is the “Big Joke” cause you have more power over your life when you surrender to the unknown and navigate your way through each opportunity to go with the flow you have desired.

Letting go takes more courage and strength then holding on to what we think is security.  The American Dream sometimes becomes the American Nightmare when you are afraid of the boogieman.  So what is it we all really desire in life?  I ask myself this question very often.  So here I am once again at the fork in the road.  Re-identify yourself is a momentary thing.  Once you decide this is my new persona it just happens.  It honestly is not even odd to me how the universe and the people that are in your life suddenly see you in this new way.  Not even questioning just feeling your solid choice to become a new person.  As if you were that person all along.  I’ve been so many different types of woman over my years that maybe I want to try on the traveling philosopher for awhile and write a book of my own as I journal through the changes of my life.

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