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Recently I have discovered I have no right butting into the details of how my life unfolds.  Sounds kinda crazy RIGHT?  Let me explain.  Here goes, let’s set up some scenarios shall we…

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Scenario 1:

You go into a restaurant you peruse the menu and choose your dining experience, a lite meal or a savory dish, either way you reach deep into your desires and feelings of what will nurture you at this moment.  You sit back and let the experts serve you, right?  You enjoy the full experience, the atmosphere, the sounds, maybe even feel yourself become more present with people around you.  You tune in to the subtle nuances surrounding you.  You open up to opportunities or even foresee giving help to a person reluctantly reaching out for assistance. Then when your dish arrives you are gracious and appreciative of the server as well as the cook and the time and efforts all the elements it took to have this experience.

Scenario 2: 

You go to a restaurant you check out the menu and choose what you want to eat, a lite meal or a savory dish.  Now, instead of trusting that experts will take care of your order, you nervously start thinking of all the things you may not have asked for in order to get the dish done right.  Mind chatter starts to take over, paranoia or that lacking feeling.  Hastily you run back into the kitchen where the magic happens, and you start wondering why the cook isn’t flipping this, or adding that. “Wait, What?, You’re not doing it right, I “think” it needs more of …” the list goes on.  Does this have the feel of a nice dining experience?   Are you setting yourself up for, not only some awkward moments, but your in the kitchen trying to control your experience while your missing out on your real truth, life’s lessons and opportunities as they present themselves at your table.  Even if your host is gracious and doesn’t kick you out of the restaurant; you will be so wound up that even trying to digest this meal won’t be pleasant or nurturing.  Mostly because it was not made with love and trust.

Love and trust, are two of the elements that can launch the creation of your desired dish of life.  Let’s take this a step further, shall we?  So now take these scenarios and apply them to our own life’s desires like placing our orders to the “universe”, then we maybe able to tangibly understand  the ludicrous behaviors we all, from time to time, have enacted to create our dreams.  I say the word tangible because this theory is not new, manifesting your desire or sending your order up to the “universe” through the law of attraction or as some of you know it from the movie “The Secret”.  Well, I agree with Abraham Hicks who has been talking about the “Law of Attraction” for decades.  The movie, yet effective in the way of getting out the initial message, did not really explain your part in the manifestation of it.  For me, and maybe many others, the thought of just letting go and letting the “Universe” take care of it seemed kinda to airy fairy.  Being known as a so called “hippie” from Topanga, you’d think I’d be all over that.  Well I’m a realist that embraces the fact that magic does happen when you resist control and let go of “your” idea of what you “think” you want or how it is “supposed” to go down.  Yet, I still find myself trying to control or set up the events and elements “I” feel are needed for my desire to to make the menu.  Having this vision now of a staff of people who have my best interests at heart, who are here to organize my “ALL INCLUSIVE” vacation of life;  I can sit back and just say to the “Universal Travel Agent”:  so what’s up for today?   Oh, we aren’t going there or that person isn’t joining the group?  OK cool, a change in the menu and a new experience.  So what is it I’m going to experience?   What will you dish out as my overall “big Picture” experience from the order I placed from the ever changing universal menu?

It is freeing knowing that you are here to enjoy your experience of life. You always have the opportunity at every moment to make a choice.  Because your travel agent is just ordering up what you asked for.  Saying no, or even not even realizing you passed up an opportunity to experience what you desire, may just be a sign that you are not ready to receive.  Being conscious and clear on what you want with no need to be realistic, dream big, trust that you are enough of a “RockStar” to deserve that experience.  Allow yourself to receive and pay attention to the details of enjoyment and possibly signs that are presenting themselves for you to change your order to better serve you as you evolve and grow.  Our palate  changes over the years, so don’t be stuck in a humdrum existence.  Be daring and try new things, you could be surprised, the magical experts that can pull a lot more strings then us can serve you up more then you could have ever dreamt up.   Now, Order up and enjoy your living vacation we call “LIFE”.  YUM

“I’ll take an order of Integrity with a dash of sexy, and a side of adventure to go Please 🙂 ”

 

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reflectionnnnThe only way I hear myself is through your Ears …so who’s listening?  Recently I’ve discovered my reaction to others reflection can be defensive. Yet sometimes their reflection can show me an image of myself that is in true alignment with the state of mind I’m in.  When your out of alignment your first reaction is to be defensive, redirect, justify and even blame.  So when I feel these emotions surfacing I take a moment to reflect myself at that image I’ve given off.  What they see is an image I have of myself.  So if I am not happy with that reflection I better start to change my perceptions and view myself in different ways.  Self esteem goes beyond just your looks, it is a core belief that you are lovable.  I’ve observed that most of us have a hard time realizing our worth.  Or should I say be comfortable to allow love into our hearts.  When we find excuses for how others treat us it is a sure sign that we are lowering our standards to protect ourselves from being hurt.  I had a book of justifications that was so big that I realize now why I renamed it to “War & Peace”.  Justifying and reasoning away your self worth is devaluing your desires.  We all have the right to be happy and loved.  Just because you are a mother, father, sister, brother or even the president you have a right to be happy and loved.  Yes we all signed up to have responsibilities and with that comes sacrifice.

Taking control of your life.  How does that look?  So many responsibilities and choices daily… finding more opportunities and disappointments along the way that could keep you frozen in your tracks.  Well today I have seen how my life has changed because I am not scared of what the unknown can be.  I’ve seen how this image I wanted so badly of myself is maybe a skewed picture of staying safe and in control.  I chose now to let go of the known and aligning with what I’ve desired all this time.  Now that the shift has occurred I can see clearly that “Image” of myself that is beautiful and perfect with all of her fears and desires. We have a choice to see worthlessness or we can see within seconds a radiant capable spirit.  Don’t be scared of the limitless possibilities or fear your leaving your loved ones behind or disappointing them.  Be that leader that can show by example to love yourself and have everything you desire and then some.  Go forth you Spiritual Warriors and let’s set an example together.  My ears are here for you are you can you see yourself?

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How do you unlearn what you know?  How do you be less conscious?  Is ignorance Bliss?  These are questions I’m up against lately.  I feel this cloud of awareness doom.  Not only in our society and it’s ecological matters yet in my own personal life.  Becoming more aware of not only your surroundings but being more accountable of your motives and actions can be challenging.  Seems like it’s a simpler world masked in the abyss of internal doom.  So is accepting and revealing your demons make it easier?

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I guess we know what we are dealing with and have a choice on our nextmoves and why we are choosing to repeat the pattern.  But with each shuffle of life we get dealt we get a new hand.  It’s like playing Texas Hold’m with our society.  We all are playing off the same cards of life.  We can fold or go for the hand. You never know, like they say fake it to you make it (hee hee).  You can win the whole pot.  I don’t know about you but I’m a wild card player and take chances others may not.  With those odds comes a bit more losses yet glory in the unexpected wins.  So my theory on life is ALL IN!.

Photo Credit : The Clouded Sun: 1891

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A New Year! A New Chance, A New Beginning.

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With all of that is New we reflect on what is Old, Past and Finished.  Letting Go of Old patterns, Desire new ways of experiencing life.  Taking Year End Inventory.  Restocking what you need more of and letting go of what it is that you don’t need to carry into the New Year.  Doing a year end review on your accomplishments as well as looking forward to starting fresh.  Even though it’s only another day it is an indicator of growth and expansion.  Collectively we all can support each other’s ideas and struggles.  We have both disappointments and achievements to process during these next few days.  Collectively we are feeling the Astrology and it’s New Moon as well.  The Year starts off with a bang of Chaos energy.  So just hold on tight and rest assured you are not going crazy it is a collective feeling.  Being overwhelmed and depressed can be indicators that you are experiencing and processing the uproar of all of these energies surrounding our planet.  I’m no Astrologist but have heard some theories that support this.  I suggest you do some homework on this, cause it may explain a lot of what you’re feeling.  As for me grieving and letting go of expectations is where I have my challenges.  Remembering the days when I ran out and looked for rocks to turn so I can start fresh without fear of failure.  These days I notice I’m in a gravel driveway of choices and find these rocks daunting and exhausting.  How do we not get intimidated by this overwhelming feeling of being frozen in our decisions?  I am noticing if I take a step back and see the big picture.  Take quite a few breaths.  Have an idea of what I’m seeking I can see the path more clearly.  This way I can skip from one rock to the next without twisting my perceptions of things.  Stay focused on your desires and the outcome, your opportunities will present themselves along the way.  Don’t worry about what is under these rocks just take them as a path to your destination.  Enjoy the journey.  Happy 2014 Let’s ROCK IT OUT Together!