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default616_0Hidden Words have Hidden Meanings.  Revealing your words in order to find the meaning is so much easier said, than done.  Our challenge is to learn how to find the correct word to describe our true meaning.  The first step is to give yourself permission to search the corners of your self that you have avoided in the past.
Searching brings out a fear in all of us but entering those dark places can allow us to emote, to share a bright burst of light through which a once scary topic brings out our courageous approach.  Trust is key, this is the only method in which you can allow yourself to have enough vulnerability to enter places once thought to be barren.  If we can trust that we possess the abilities to keep ourselves safe  we can  achieve almost anything.
Does this come with experience?  Could we just go right in with blind faith?  I guess that is all up to the individual.  Lately, I’ve been experiencing that I have the choice to be happy or unhappy — it’s as simple as that.  The simplicity of it all can also be pretty annoying.  It can be so tempting to play the victim, or throwing out the “yeah buts”.  Giving  ourselves the seal of approval to not take those chances due to our circumstance or facts that fit is too easy.
I’m not afraid anymore to dig deep for the words to emote the true meanings of my desires or fears for that matter.  Once I acknowledge them it’s like they don’t have any control over me anymore.  I’ve recently read the book “The Untethered Soul” by Michael A. Singer.  I highly recommend dipping into this book.  A good friend recommended it and it has truly blown my mind a few times over.  Without reciting the whole book, it just gave me the insight to just be in the moment of the triggers that occur and let them pass through like clouds on a sunny day.
Instead of putting up all this armor to protect yourself from the rain that will fall, you slowly start not to go out at all to prevent the potential of a drizzle from ever happening, we stop and forget to feel what that rain brings to us. Basically, we can run but we can never hide.  Like the cloudy day, is it really that bad to get a little wet?
Tears, like rain can nurture the soil of our souls and blossom beautiful flowers of Love and Opportunities our way.  They don’t say stop and smell the Roses for no reason.  With each passing cloud that comes our way, run out into it and know this is your opportunity to turn the soil of the bed you made for yourself.  It’s going to be ok, weeds will always sprout up, but as we know if you don’t pull it out by the root of the problem it will always find its way out again.  So those hidden words can be found out in the ominous clouds.  Discover the blossoming new meanings life can bring you.
Don’t allow yourself to stay dormant and be alone out in your Mohave Desert.  This will only have you thirsty for nurturing and being delusional by the mirages you see before yourself, that trick you into quick fixes.  I get scared, and I get frustrated, impatient like any of us can.  The thing that has changed for me, is the freedom and empowerment I gave myself.  This reassures me that I have the abilities to assess what makes me scared, frustrated etc., and have the insight to express them in a loving way.  This kind of freedom allows you to run free into the darkness knowing it will enrich you, challenge you, and help you grow.  Our words are like fertilizers, sometimes it stinks and it’s shitty.  Yet all the past experiences that organically have broken down in our spirit, can be used like enriched compost to tend to our gardens.  I’m excited for all of us to trust we have a green thumb, allow yourself to open up and get out there.  The sun will shine through the clouds and reveal the true abundance you seek at the end of your rainbow. 🌈
Editor – Anita Antonio 

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Life is An Experiment JPGWow !   Life sometimes just knocks at my door and this time I answer alert and conscious.   My swagger changes and a certain sense of awareness comes over me .  As I break my experience down to moments of satisfaction and overwhelming sense of contentment and importance.  A moment when I realize I am there for myself.  I can’t explain it, other than to say f or the first time consciously  “I really like myself ! ”   Where as the “cool” side of me really dug the “real” side of me and they bonded.  I seemed to experience a deep sense of respect for a side of me I’ve taken for granted.

Maybe we have never really gotten to know ourselves.  Honestly, do you really know yourself?  This is someone that you spend every moment with.  Have you become so codependent on yourself that you’ve given up?  Enabling and excusing your behavior due to not wanting to face your own need for growth? Or just justified your actions cause your too lazy to admit that you could be possibly wrong?  This person (part of yourself)  stands by you and puts up with all your shit.  They watch you as you drag them around through one situation after the next.  Whether it be a good time or bad.  They are always there, smiling or crying by your side.  So I ask you one more time. Do you really know yourself?  I mean can you depend on yourself?  Do you have your best interests at heart?  Have you not stood up for yourself? Have you let others overpower you?  I’m sure 80% of you could answer YES to at least one of those questions.

That’s why I have suddenly switched.  I can’t explain how other then my circle of evolution has come full circle.  It all makes sense suddenly .  I’m happy.  WOW,  really I am.  Nothing has changed, other then my perception of myself.  I’m there for myself for one of the first times.  I’ve proven to myself that I got my own back and won’t put myself into situation’s where I would have to figure my way out of.  I respect who and whom I spend my time with.  I keep an open heart to allow love in and have compassion for those who don’t know how.

These last few months have been heavy, one of my close friends lost her partner and another lost his teenage daughter.  I can’t imagine the pain they must feel, when life suddenly just switches gears .  This has really made me realize ;  we are truly alone in this world.  We have each other for support and companionship.  But we must have a good relationship with ourselves,  to be able to carry on when tragedy occurs.  Hold on and buckle up, cause the only thing we have control of , is the destination we desire.  Then the rest is up to our own internal navigation devise.  We get re-routed when there is a sudden detour in our course.  Keeping calibrated to our own soul as our internal authority we must use self care to provide the rest stops needed  along the way.

There is a calmness when you can surrender to your own respect and become proud of who you are.  Honored to discover new mysteries about yourself and find unheard of strengths you didn’t realize  you had.  These attributes and findings come when you believe in yourself and allow the vulnerable you to flower.   Finding a way to have self – esteem  through all the dark places  you may go,  when faced with your old story.  Rising above what others think of you and concentrate on what you think of others.

Let your first instinct to love and have compassion be the forefront in decision making.  It is not your place to control how others think of you it’s actually none of your business.  What is your business is how you think of yourself.  You have every right to Love whomever you choose.  Or not be friends with whomever you choose as well.  It does go both ways.  Mainly it is not to get yourself caught up in this web of mistrust and insecurities.  The most confident person you know has moments of insecurities, don’t you ever think differently.  We are all in this experience together.  That’s why we concentrate on our own experiment and leave our other lab partners to their own.   This way at the end of the day we can share our discoveries and create a world of  mind- blowing revolutions that will evolve our spirits to creating the funnest, loving experience we have ever imagined.   I’m ready to share the Nobel Prize of Life with you.  So do your studies … concentrate your attention on the subject at hand… YOU.