How do you unlearn what you know?  How do you be less conscious?  Is ignorance Bliss?  These are questions I’m up against lately.  I feel this cloud of awareness doom.  Not only in our society and it’s ecological matters yet in my own personal life.  Becoming more aware of not only your surroundings but being more accountable of your motives and actions can be challenging.  Seems like it’s a simpler world masked in the abyss of internal doom.  So is accepting and revealing your demons make it easier?

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I guess we know what we are dealing with and have a choice on our nextmoves and why we are choosing to repeat the pattern.  But with each shuffle of life we get dealt we get a new hand.  It’s like playing Texas Hold’m with our society.  We all are playing off the same cards of life.  We can fold or go for the hand. You never know, like they say fake it to you make it (hee hee).  You can win the whole pot.  I don’t know about you but I’m a wild card player and take chances others may not.  With those odds comes a bit more losses yet glory in the unexpected wins.  So my theory on life is ALL IN!.

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Our Truth . . . When someone tells you their truth, it should be your truth.    I don’t know about you but this lesson has been haunting me for years.  I realize now that as humans we need to honor that truth.  Even if we don’t understand it to be OUR truth.  Cause when you dive in deeper you can see what is it that you can’t except about their truth?  That your truth may not be true?  We can not push our opinions, beliefs or for that mater ourselves on anyone that is respecting themselves with their beliefs.  We need to respect ourselves and not be set up for rejection, confrontation, and for that matter War.  Who do we think we are to believe that if we just say this, or if we beat them over the head then that, that they will change their views?  What really is behind your point of view?  Stop beating yourself up and start to realize your own truth.  Reality is looking at you straight between the eyes.  Be confident enough in your own beliefs to know that no matter whoever else disagrees it doesn’t change what is True for you.  Sometime you can surprise yourself and they can shine a light to broaden your truth.  That is respecting yourself and others.   I want to apologize to whomever I have pushed my opinion on or looked down on them for not living in my truth.  In fact I respect them and love them for being honest and revealing themselves in their truth.  As the saying goes when someone tells you who they are believe them. Honor that honesty and allow space to maybe not share religions with everybody, or share the same music, or even share the same bed.  If we as humans start to recognize the differences between each other we can start to see how very similar we are.  What begins with Truth ends with Truth.

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Everybody wants to be free. They want to lose themselves in ecstasy, euphoria, bliss. Be freed to dive into their own expression. The only way to be freed, the only way to lose yourself, is to engage and participate. Think of it like simple chemistry alone we are just Atoms, but if you want to create something magical we need to bond together to create a Molecule experience.  Allow all of your Atoms particles to reveal themselves. Your Protons carry a positive electrical charge, electrons carry a negative electrical charge. All of these compound into our vulnerable feelings and desires.  WOW, can you feel the electricity and power this carries.  Damn I’m getting a rush just writing this.

multi_dimensional_universeSo as you go about your day wanting to create your experience, take a look at what your not revealing or sharing cause it all MATTERS.  Yes, I am guilty of it myself but now I am taking each moment as a science project.  At first it maybe with kit gloves not to mess things up.  And, yes you will have a few explosions along the way.  What not to mix with your chemistry and what to avoid.  But in the long run once you start trusting your elements and know what your working with you can be more of a biochemist an expert and creating more intense experiences that go deeper into the unknown.  You will be surprised at the depths you can go with your discoveries.

As I always say we are in this together so lets show up to lab class and have some fun!! Enjoy you Magical Ones!

A New Year! A New Chance, A New Beginning.

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With all of that is New we reflect on what is Old, Past and Finished.  Letting Go of Old patterns, Desire new ways of experiencing life.  Taking Year End Inventory.  Restocking what you need more of and letting go of what it is that you don’t need to carry into the New Year.  Doing a year end review on your accomplishments as well as looking forward to starting fresh.  Even though it’s only another day it is an indicator of growth and expansion.  Collectively we all can support each other’s ideas and struggles.  We have both disappointments and achievements to process during these next few days.  Collectively we are feeling the Astrology and it’s New Moon as well.  The Year starts off with a bang of Chaos energy.  So just hold on tight and rest assured you are not going crazy it is a collective feeling.  Being overwhelmed and depressed can be indicators that you are experiencing and processing the uproar of all of these energies surrounding our planet.  I’m no Astrologist but have heard some theories that support this.  I suggest you do some homework on this, cause it may explain a lot of what you’re feeling.  As for me grieving and letting go of expectations is where I have my challenges.  Remembering the days when I ran out and looked for rocks to turn so I can start fresh without fear of failure.  These days I notice I’m in a gravel driveway of choices and find these rocks daunting and exhausting.  How do we not get intimidated by this overwhelming feeling of being frozen in our decisions?  I am noticing if I take a step back and see the big picture.  Take quite a few breaths.  Have an idea of what I’m seeking I can see the path more clearly.  This way I can skip from one rock to the next without twisting my perceptions of things.  Stay focused on your desires and the outcome, your opportunities will present themselves along the way.  Don’t worry about what is under these rocks just take them as a path to your destination.  Enjoy the journey.  Happy 2014 Let’s ROCK IT OUT Together!

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Taking inventory of your direction is based on the emotional indicators that are going off in ourbody all the time.  Studying the law of attraction through Abraham Hicks has reminded me of what is literally at our fingertips.  If your feeling frustrated or angry or any other type of Yucky feeling.  You are going towards more of what you don’t want.  It is easier said then done… but is it?  The more you master the slightest nuances of your behavior you can master closing the gap to what you want a lot more quicker.  If you are stubborn and or find yourself stuck in a rut of emotional turmoil, you will be like a mule staying put and creating havoc and getting no where.  So take a moment when your emotional indicator light comes on and reassess your options.  No need to try to speed down your path when you are not operating in your  optimum potential.  So take this moment to give yourself a tune up and check in before proceeding down life’s path.

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My discovery for the day is the art of nothingness.  Pausing and doing nothing is highly Under Rated Accomplishment !!

It takes a lot of patience, trust and allowing.  Getting out of your head and into your being.  Stop Doing and Start Being. 

Keep your mind busy by thinking of how you feel instead of what you think.  It’s time to embrace the lighter side of YOU!  Heavy huh?

When your at the end of a chapter you feel sad to turn the page.  Knowing that this story has ended. Feeling a shift that is bigger then me, that I manifested. Sometimes the creation is larger then it’s maker.  Surrendering to this wave, I need to hold on to my inner core of whom I am and who I believe I can be.  Having an open heart and having no agendas has lead me to a moment in time I can barely describe.  It’s like a wave of silence that is almost too loud to hear anything else then your inner voice.  I find myself almost holding my breath awaiting some kind of a sign.  Yet I hear nothing but my spirit collapsing into a state of defeat.  I never thought being pushed to such a state could be so bitter sweet. Yes I’ve had big shifts before but consciously I was not aware of my contributions to my movement.  I thought life was happening to me. Never was aware the I was happening to life.  Having this consciousness now it is a very powerful tool.  It almost is the “Big Joke” cause you have more power over your life when you surrender to the unknown and navigate your way through each opportunity to go with the flow you have desired.

Letting go takes more courage and strength then holding on to what we think is security.  The American Dream sometimes becomes the American Nightmare when you are afraid of the boogieman.  So what is it we all really desire in life?  I ask myself this question very often.  So here I am once again at the fork in the road.  Re-identify yourself is a momentary thing.  Once you decide this is my new persona it just happens.  It honestly is not even odd to me how the universe and the people that are in your life suddenly see you in this new way.  Not even questioning just feeling your solid choice to become a new person.  As if you were that person all along.  I’ve been so many different types of woman over my years that maybe I want to try on the traveling philosopher for awhile and write a book of my own as I journal through the changes of my life.

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photo-6As I start this journey over once again, I ask myself what is different?  How can I change the story?  Am I still looking for the fairytale ending?  Or am I wrapped up in the Romantic Comedy?  At least I’ve outgrown the Edgy 9 1/2 weeks mind playing storyline’s yet sexy and fun it leaves you empty.  For now I am on a more internal journey to discover my desires.  Outside of a relationship with others besides myself.

Finding what you desire sounds somewhat easy unless your me.  I have so many moments of interest from writing, photography, music, theory, counseling, alchemy, cooking.  But they all have one common thread which is capturing expressions with in myself.  Feeling the outcome wash through my body whether I’m eating my creation or singing it.  Feeling, Expressing & Receiving is the key to my narrowing down my path.

Now taking action is the challenge.  Although I realize I have already taken this step by writing this journal.  Actually giving yourself credit after an accomplishment whether big or small is a huge step to taking action.  As well a allowing yourself time to breath and feel your next step.  Patience has become my new best friend.  Well I’m learning how to coexist with having it around.