December 2013

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Taking inventory of your direction is based on the emotional indicators that are going off in ourbody all the time.  Studying the law of attraction through Abraham Hicks has reminded me of what is literally at our fingertips.  If your feeling frustrated or angry or any other type of Yucky feeling.  You are going towards more of what you don’t want.  It is easier said then done… but is it?  The more you master the slightest nuances of your behavior you can master closing the gap to what you want a lot more quicker.  If you are stubborn and or find yourself stuck in a rut of emotional turmoil, you will be like a mule staying put and creating havoc and getting no where.  So take a moment when your emotional indicator light comes on and reassess your options.  No need to try to speed down your path when you are not operating in your  optimum potential.  So take this moment to give yourself a tune up and check in before proceeding down life’s path.

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My discovery for the day is the art of nothingness.  Pausing and doing nothing is highly Under Rated Accomplishment !!

It takes a lot of patience, trust and allowing.  Getting out of your head and into your being.  Stop Doing and Start Being. 

Keep your mind busy by thinking of how you feel instead of what you think.  It’s time to embrace the lighter side of YOU!  Heavy huh?

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When your at the end of a chapter you feel sad to turn the page.  Knowing that this story has ended. Feeling a shift that is bigger then me, that I manifested. Sometimes the creation is larger then it’s maker.  Surrendering to this wave, I need to hold on to my inner core of whom I am and who I believe I can be.  Having an open heart and having no agendas has lead me to a moment in time I can barely describe.  It’s like a wave of silence that is almost too loud to hear anything else then your inner voice.  I find myself almost holding my breath awaiting some kind of a sign.  Yet I hear nothing but my spirit collapsing into a state of defeat.  I never thought being pushed to such a state could be so bitter sweet. Yes I’ve had big shifts before but consciously I was not aware of my contributions to my movement.  I thought life was happening to me. Never was aware the I was happening to life.  Having this consciousness now it is a very powerful tool.  It almost is the “Big Joke” cause you have more power over your life when you surrender to the unknown and navigate your way through each opportunity to go with the flow you have desired.

Letting go takes more courage and strength then holding on to what we think is security.  The American Dream sometimes becomes the American Nightmare when you are afraid of the boogieman.  So what is it we all really desire in life?  I ask myself this question very often.  So here I am once again at the fork in the road.  Re-identify yourself is a momentary thing.  Once you decide this is my new persona it just happens.  It honestly is not even odd to me how the universe and the people that are in your life suddenly see you in this new way.  Not even questioning just feeling your solid choice to become a new person.  As if you were that person all along.  I’ve been so many different types of woman over my years that maybe I want to try on the traveling philosopher for awhile and write a book of my own as I journal through the changes of my life.

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photo-6As I start this journey over once again, I ask myself what is different?  How can I change the story?  Am I still looking for the fairytale ending?  Or am I wrapped up in the Romantic Comedy?  At least I’ve outgrown the Edgy 9 1/2 weeks mind playing storyline’s yet sexy and fun it leaves you empty.  For now I am on a more internal journey to discover my desires.  Outside of a relationship with others besides myself.

Finding what you desire sounds somewhat easy unless your me.  I have so many moments of interest from writing, photography, music, theory, counseling, alchemy, cooking.  But they all have one common thread which is capturing expressions with in myself.  Feeling the outcome wash through my body whether I’m eating my creation or singing it.  Feeling, Expressing & Receiving is the key to my narrowing down my path.

Now taking action is the challenge.  Although I realize I have already taken this step by writing this journal.  Actually giving yourself credit after an accomplishment whether big or small is a huge step to taking action.  As well a allowing yourself time to breath and feel your next step.  Patience has become my new best friend.  Well I’m learning how to coexist with having it around.